A couple of months ago, I decided to teach a weight loss program this May. When I made this decision, I was doing great with food, losing weight using my own techniques and feeling on top of the world.
Then Easter happened. I ate a little too much, especially sweets which led to more sweets, which led to more sweets…… and I was back into a relationship with my old friend Sugar.
Now, those of you who don’t have problems with Sugar and Chocolate won’t understand this so you can stop reading now. But for those of you who understand what I’m talking about, please keep reading.
This morning I decided to Tap on what I was feeling. It went something like this…
Even though I planned this 6 Week Matrix Weight Loss Class when things were going really well with food, I’ve fallen off the wagon and I’m feeling too embarrassed to do this, I deeply and completely love and accept myself.
Even though I could choose to go back off of sugar (and gluten and dairy which I’ve learned the hard way is the only way I’ve found so far to lose weight post menopause), I don’t want to. At this point, I broke the rules and didn’t stick to the famous EFT ender, I love and accept myself. Instead, I went straight into “Rant and Tap” and just said what I was feeling which went something like this: I don’t want to give up my good friend Sugar. I’ll be too lonely! I’ll feel deprived. I’ll feel sad. I really will feel lonely. Tap, tap, tap…..
Wow! Had I really said that? I’ll be lonely without Sugar? Obviously, I’m already feeling lonely and Sugar doesn’t really make me feel better; it just masks it for a few minutes. Stuffs down the feelings for a few minutes and then I get to go into the ever faithful feeling of Guilt. Guilty for eating this way, guilty for not being perfect, guilty for not being the perfect Mother, embarrassed and ashamed of not being the perfect EFT Practitioner (especially since my focus is on Emotional Eating), etc…. (I’m feeling really vulnerable sharing all this with you so I’m tapping as I type)
So I tapped and cried this morning until I realized that I am still At Choice. I can choose to find Community to be in to deal with the loneliness and the subsequent guilt I’m feeling and not turn to chocolate or I can continue to turn to chocolate. Maybe a little bit of both.
The interesting thing that I hope most of you have found to be true too, is that since I brought all this up and tapped on my feelings, my desire for sugar has gone way down. To be honest, it hasn’t totally gone away and I believe I’ll choose to listen to my own The Sweet Life call (if you don’t have this recording and would like to listen to it, please let me know and I’ll share the recording) so I can Tap directly on the desire for Sugar in my body and my resistance to giving it up again.
And I’m going to go through with offering the 6-Week Matrix Weight Loss Class in May. I’m kicking it off with a free call this Friday, May 5th entitled Hello from your Future Body at 12 noon Eastern time. I hope you’ll join me for the free call and maybe the 6-week class if you feel so led.
I’m not perfect. I don’t have all the answers. I’ve lost 40 lbs from my top weight, the last 20 with EFT and yet, to be honest, there are still times that I struggle and I keep working on it. I’ve learned a great deal and have helped many people with their own emotional eating and yet I’m not perfect. So if you are looking for a weight loss class from someone who has it all totally figured out and has no problems, please look elsewhere. However, if you’d like to join in my Community and learn and grow with us, I welcome you with open arms.